you just got me naked…;p

hai… ano b yan i started with a sigh n nman…;p hehe… bsta… wla lng… it’s already 10:30 in the evening and i still hafta do my hws… but then i decided to write something muna on my blog since mtgl n rin ako di nkpagpost… until now, the word ‘routinary’ is still bangin in my head…;p hehe… che kc eh… well i agree… i also feel the same most of the tym cherryl… i go to skul then i eat then i do my hws then sleep then go to skul, eat, do my hws, sleep, go to skul… whew… seems like i can’t breathe nymore… wla lng… but i deem i enjoy my life a lil better than you do… hehe… seems like you really hate your lyf?… oh well that’s sad… and that sucks…

hmmm… i dunno but since i got home i already have this feeling of ‘pagsasawa’… nkksawa n ang lyf… pra bng you always have to keep up with things na mnsan di k na aware your lyf has already passed you by… gets mo ba?… bsta… un na un… i’m tired…

dmi kong pnproblema, inaasikaso and all that… wla lng… mdlas iniimagine ko pano kya kung pmnta ko sa isang place pra naman mkpg-icp ako and get closer to myself… i need a break that’s it… feelng ko i’m a puppet na gglaw kung saan ako gstong pglwin… prng gnon?… bsta… hai… i’m not sad… ngddrama lng ako kung bkt gnto ang aking life…

erm… cgro this is the reason why i ADORE fridays… grabe tlga… feeling ko wlng problma at wlang dpat asikasuhin… at sobrng sya tlga though nkkpgod nga lang paguwi… but nyway mas ppliin ko nmang mpgod ako physically ksa nman sa kakaicp ng mga dpt gwin… it’s ridiculous pero mdlas i ask my sister, “ate pano kya kung wag n ko pmsok forever?”… “pano kung wag n ko gmawa ng hws? bhla nang mpgltan?”… but i just can’t… no i can’t… hay…

speaking of the school thingy, hai… okei lng sna kung super happy kso nde… how i miss my CNA kada… i miss tin-tin and jackie… i miss my darwin family… more than i do with my pauling kada… to be honest… wla lng… i miss the three of us in the canteen tuwing mei vacant which happens to be our math period… i miss eating only with jaq during lunch tym… at times ori so fat eats with us… i miss eating green mangoes with sugar and soy sauce…;p hehe… hai… how i wish i cud turn back time… how i wish i’m with my CNA kada…

but no… it ain’t because of my ‘new group’… quite frankly i’m happy being with ren, xe, chikay and espexally er… pero wla lng… i just wna reminisce… i just wna be honest with how i feel… i feel so emoxonal ryt now and i just dunno y… i hate being emoxonal but can’t help it… hai… lawrence will be goin out on friday… sna mging happy…Ü tweet and i will be goin out on 21… and i’m very much lookin forward to it goodness… i miss tweet… i miss being with her doin our ’suicide-sucide-an’ game…;p hahaha…

i also think that the other reason why i am not happy today is because i’ve seen vinny for a while lng… from 7 am to 6 pm being in skul, mgththree pm na kmi ngkta… i even thought he was absent and even prepared my speech when i get home and call him, tell him why he didn’t even text me and blah blah blah…;p haha… do i sound like i’m his mother?! not really…;p teehee… wla lng i hate missing sumone and i hate missing him the most!!! and wyl i was eating at the canteen with chikay and xe sumone covered my eyes… axis and vin do that most of the time and i knew it was hunny when i touched his arms… there’s something different between marvin jay’s ‘balahibo arrangement’ compared with jon alexis’…;p haha… wattaword… bsta un na un…

ai nku it’s getting late na… 12:30 na… nku i hafta do my hws already pg nlate ako mmya d n ko papapasukin for the whole day… cge byerz!…;p

hai naku… buhay nga naman… i was supposed to review ngaung araw for my test tomorrow… pero i can’t miss this opportunity to write how i feel… grabe… knna ang aus ng pkrmdam ko… putang ina kc… PUTANG INA tlga… di ko n kyang icontain nrrmdaman ko… bkt kc nakakagago mga tao sa plgid eh… SHIT tlga… i HATE feeling this… grabe… ang sama lng tlga ng loob ko ngaung araw wla akong mpgsbihan… wla akong mtkbuhan kya dito ko nlng idadaan… ang hrp tlga mging middle child… ndi nila ko naiintndhan putang ina… ayko umiyak wla rin namang mngyyri kht ilang beses ko p cla iykan… ppkta ko lng n mhna ako kya hangga’t kya ko ayko umiyak sa hrap nila… kya dito nlng ako iiyak sa hrap ng pc… dto nlng ako mgllabas ng sama ng loob ko s knila… dito nalang ako mgssbi kung anong nafifil kong sabhin… ayko mging expresiv sa nrrmdman ko galit man ako or wat… basta PUTANG INA… grabe na lumalabas sa bibig ko pero shit kc eh… ayko tlga mgsbi nian pero di mbbwasan sama ng loob ko ngaung araw na to hangga’t di ko yan nssbi ng ilang beses… bkt ako hndi naiintndhan pero cla plgi nlng… ako nlng kc lgi ung mali pra bang feeling ko sa isang bond paper matuldukan lng un ng ballpen ung tuldok kgad ung mkkta… putang ina… nakakainis gsto ko ng kumawala… pero ayko gwin… di ko kyang gwin… gsto ko cla murahin ng ilang beses… di ko alam kung ano bang dpt na itanong… BAKIT AKO NGING GANITO o BAKIT CLA GNON… i know i have my faults pero sna maicp nila ung knila… sna kht mnsan marealize nila na HINDI na ko msya kht pa msaya cla… putang ina… y do they have to control my life?… kung ico2ntrol lng inla buhay ko better not call it MY life dahil never nging akin un… never akong nging masaya sa buhay ni bnbgy nila sakin… cgro pra sa mrmi masasamaan skin being this girl, being this type of daughter pro grabe n kc… di ko mailabas ung emoxons ko s knila… sna ndi na maipon p to… di ko na kaya tlga… seryoso… di ko n kya tlga… better yet, sna tumigil na lng cla… kc nakakaPUTANG INA… nakakaPUTANG INA tlga… sna lng ngaung tym n to mismo mei pngsasabihan ako ng sama ng loob ko… hindi lng ung pc kc di naman xa ngsasalita… kso ayko na… ittgo ko nlng to sa sarili ko… at sa knug cno man ang mkkbasa nito… kc tlgang nakakaputang ina… tlgang nakakaputang ina tong sitwaxon ko… khit cnong taong mabait mgsasawa rin eh… di ako mabait and i know that for a fact… pero sna intndhn din nila ko… hndi laging AKO ang iintndi… anak lng ako… wala akong krpatang mgsalita… wala akong krapatang mgdisagree… ano pa bng ikakaputang ina ng buhay ko… sna ikaw, sa ngbbasa nito, wag sayong gwin to ng mga taong mahal mo dahil kahit na mhal mo cla, dadating at dadating ung tym na mgsasawa ka at hahanapin mo kung saan k ngkulang kht na feeling mo gngawa mo na ang lhat pra mpsaya cla kht wla nmang tlga clang pkielam… nkakaputang ina tlga… hai… ayko na…

mlpit na mag12 am sa fone q pero i’m not yet sleepy… srap p nman mtulog lalo na at umuulan… hai… cgro nga nocturnal na q… it’s been a lnog time i think… hmmmmm… dmi ko nang ndi nashare… well unang-una sa lahat… mis n mis ko na ang isa sa mga besty ko… beZ-beZ dawn i miss you… hai… i thought u miss me no more… hehe… drama ko tlga… gnito tlga beZ mo pagpasenxahan mo na… kht ba loka ko pag ksma ka (since frst yr 2x lng ata kta nksma… paalis alis p kc eh…;p) i still have my soft spot… hmmmm… wla lng… miss n kta kc… miss ko na mkpgharutan sau… miss n kta sigawan sa fone at sabunutan…;p teehee… oh well… wla lng… bsta…

i’m warped this midnyt… tntnong ako ni czareen kung bkt d p dw ako ntutulog… di ako inaantok eh… ano p b pwedeng gwin… unga pla ksma ko c mommy colleen sa rob knna… hehe… we’re on our pig tails… lollipop girls are cutesy… we ate then we decided to watch the game… galing gling ni vinny pnalo ang fara though i wasn’t able to watch hanggang dulo… mglnig din c axis!!!… hehe…Ü

i also miss ruThie… wla lng… sa 28 ha?!;p hehe… ang dming kong taong namimiss… bhra n kc kmi mkpgchikahan ni tweet eh unlyk nung 2nd year at last year… asar nman… erm… nakakamiss tlga… sya sya magreminisce…

ano b to… ang drama ko nman ngaung araw… asar… ano p b pwede ko ikwento… tntry ko ausin ung profyl ko pero di ko mkta ung verdict kc d ata compatible sa pc… bwct… aausin q rin ung k vinny para cute…;p

sna tlga mtuloy ung plan ko… secret ko nlng muna un…;p hehe… bsta i hafta work fast kc di un gnon kdli gwin… pero knno ko kya ppgawa…??? erm… k badi nlng cgro… pra msya…;p sna mei tym p xa lalo na’t nag-aaral n ngaun ng maigi c badi kc gsto niang tumaas p lalo ang grades nia… test ko n pla sa sunday sa la salle… sa kung cno mang mkkbasa nito make sure na ipgppray nio ko ha?! joke lng…;p pero sna pmasa nrin ako… hehehe…

miss q n c vinny… ay naku sa kung cno mang mkkbasa nito at sa tingin nio eh vinny nlng lgi ang bukambibig ko ndi nman… ang skit nman nun… hehe… pero miss q n tlga xa… wla lng… hai… mmya ggcng ako ulit ng mga 7… i hafta start my hws n dhil sa hapon mgaaral n ko for my test on sunday…

aun p pla… nakakinis tlga ung praktis knna… bwct… KC MALALANDI ANG GIRLS EH… ay naku knno kyang line yan… asar… sna matamaan ka!!! bwct k tlga ang yabang mo… di mo pa ata alam eh, DI KA GWAPO SO STOP ACTING AS ONE okei?! un ay kung mei frndster ka… inis tlga ko sau…

ano p ba… wala… i feel so ordinary… prang…… WALA LANG… bkt b gnto ang araw na to… ar shud i say ang midnyt n to…;p hehe… watever… shemai nman mei summativ p pla sa p6 on monday… wla tlga kong naiintndhan dun… haiiiiiii…

till hir nlng mna… tntmad n ko mgicp…………

tpos na ang lhat ng tests… finally… i min the UPCAT and the periodic… grabe… i feel so drained… nakakairita… lalo na ang mga tests sa periodic? shitty!!! asar… hmp… kc nman prng UPCAT ang test nmin… less than one hour nga lang ata eh knukuha na ang papel… wlang ptawad… grabe… npkaCONSIDERATE tlga… hai… pero nyway… tpos na eh… bbgsak na ko… mei mggwa p ba… hai… bwct tlga… kso nkakainis… pnghirapan ko tlga arlin ung isang subject dun… as in inabsorb ko ng sobra sobra… kso wla tlga kong tym… 2 pages di ko nsgtan… grabe tlga… nakakabanas…!!! bwct tlga!!!… asar… sna kc… hai… sna iba nlng proctor… ung mejo ngpapaextend ng tym… mhrp kya magsolve ng sangkatutak na problems… kht multple choice nga mei solving tpos 100 items for an hour?… ano gsto nio gwin nmin? mghhgpit kau sa grades tpos di nio inaaus mga pinapatest nio… ung cnsbing mkiusap sa teacher n iklian ung test… pwede ba un? at kngu pwede man bgsak n kmi… pwede ba… kainis tlga… hai…!!! sasabay pa yang mga bwct n portfolio n yan… dami-dami pra nmang mei lesson kmi… malay ko ba kng ano ang mga NOH at kung ano-ano pa… asar… puro nlng self-study… hlos lht ng subjects self-study… pra san p kaya ang mga… hmp… wag n nga… nababanas lng ako lalo… i hate this life… this portion of my life lng pla… lol… naku… ayko n nga mgreklmo… pra nmang mei mggwa pa…

ksma ko ang pauling knna… ang saya saya… nkakamiss din ung mga times n un sa room 4– ewan… hehe… ang CLEANEST room… lolz… oh well… nkakaloka ang mga chika ng mga tao… teehee… nkakatawa tlga… hahahah…

kso dming kmalasan… after… pag lbas nmin ng rob… nbtawan ko ung payong ko… lumipad tuloy sa kalsada at hinabol ko pa tuloy… basa n tuloy ako… tpos… sumakay n kmi ni pau sa bus… di nkasara nug zipper ng bag ko dhil nandun sa loob ung chem book… so nkabukas lng xa… nung bumaba na ko, cgro mga 10 steps na nggwa ko… haha… biglang bumaba ung konduktor ng bur tpos inabot skin ung celfone ko… GAWSH!!!… SHITTY TLGA… kung di skin un bnlik patay ako sa parents ko… bka d n ko blhan ng fone ulit… ang sad nun… buti nlng at mabait ung konduktor dhil npulot nia ung fone ko sa inupuan nmin… d nman nkta ni paulo na nalaglag pala… tulog kc xa… e kc nman d un aware sa pligd dhil tulog lng ng tulog… hai nku… buti tlga mabait prin c God at naisoli p skin ung fone ko… knbahan ako tlga… hai… hehe…

nxt tym nlng ulit ako mgshshare…

-When a GUY is quiet and is alone,
He is thinking of you and he misses you.

-When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.

-When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves
you and how important you are to him.

-When a GUY answers “I’m Fine” after a
while,
He is not and feels hurt.

-When a GUY keep asking you the same
question,
He is wondering why you are lying.

-When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you belong to him
forever.

-When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.

-When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and he wants to know how
are you today.

-When a GUY sends message to you
everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.

-When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.

-When a GUY says that he can’t live
without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his
future
wife.

-When a GUY says “I Miss You”,
He wants to see you immediately.

i dunno… hehe… i just saw this from a friend’s post and i came to wonder if these things are true… erm… haha… no idea… why don’t we ask the GUYS anyway? will you guys make a comment bout this?! is this true or what… hahah…;p

it’s been a long time dba?… since i’ve posted a poem… hehe… wla lng… cgro dhil scattered ang ideas ko ngaun… mhrp gmwa pg di ka concntrated eh… hai… wla lng…

anong bang nafifil ko today?… a part of me is QUITE happy… 3rd monthsary nmin ni vin eh…;p saya saya nming 2…;p i’m so happy for us… and thankful rin kc we’re together, na nvr nming naicp n mngyyri pa… how weird… how ironic… hai naku…Ü kso nga lng d kmi mgksma today… and mrmi kming aattendang lkad next fridays kya mttgaln ulit bgo ko xa mksma…;p pero okies lng… hehe…

a part of me… inaantok na… it’s 1:10 in my fone… am… pero ayko pa… i’m still enjoying chatting with my friends sa ym… lol… heheheh…

ano pa ba… i miss my bestfriend so much… biglaan ko xang naiicp… BEZ-BEZ DAWN… i hope nbbasa mo to… i miss you… i miss you a lot… syang tlga once lgn tau nkpgmit nung vacation… miss ko na ang pgtawa nting ng wlang dhilan… gawsh… hai nku… i’m looking forward pra mkta ka ulit… sna mgonlyn ka… lol… but i know ur bc ryt now… kya it’s ayt wimme… hai… dont ever think of me letting u go okei?… no freakin way… as in no way… y shud i?! i have one of the best persons i this world… oh my gosh dont ever think of that nymore bez bez… okei?! i luv u sooo much as in… as in tlga…;p

sizzzzy… musta na?… it’s been quite a while nrin… bhra n tau mkpgchikahan unlyk nung 2nd yr… i’m missin u as well…Ü hai… i’m luking forward sa 22… i miss you… both of us got great fafas…;p lol… gud luck s inio…Ü i’m happy for both of you… stay strong no matter how hrd the crcmstances may be… hehhehe… i luv u rin siZZZY….;p

hai… this is knd of weird… pero… i dunno… i feel sad, mad, angry, and pessimistic rin… dunno… di maiiwaasan eh… cgro klangan tlga yan… minsan… but i’ll never fail to luk at it’s brighter side… hehehe…

LANIE kya mo yan…;p

AJA AJA AJA!!!…

u’ve gone thru many things n pra ngaun k p mging weakling…;p

hehehe…

22_09

CRASH AND BURN

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It’s hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can’t take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump i’ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You’re not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You’re caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can’t face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump i’ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You’re not alone

‘Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it’s over you’ll breathe again
You’ll breathe again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

—> this song is for alps… wla lng… tnx tlga sa lhat… i appreciate everything you’ve done (and the things you’re still doing) for me… ang bait mo tlga as in… i thot u wer a meddler wen we were in frst year… remember that?… the times nung mgkaaaway p tau… or shud i say… tyms na inaaway mo ko?! haha… bsta… whatever that one is, i’m still thankful dhil nptibay nung ang frndship ntin… namimiss ko na ang mcdo sexons ntin… plan tau!!!… hehe… tpos cgrdo kwentuhan to the max un…;p cge til hir nlng… bsta though this one’s already cliche, lagi lng tlga ko nandito for you… i mean it mor than ever… promise promise…Ü

hai naku… hmmm… ano ba… how am i gonna start this one?… erm… wla lng… actually gsto ko mgkwento tlga tungkol sa lawrence… lawrence is far different from darwin, sa ngaun… bsta… i dunno… nung una lawrence was lyk hell (sorry for the term) kc nga wla dun ung closest friends ko, CNA… and knti lng ang darwin dun so i thot can’t relate ako… hahaha… bsta gnon… at tska there were situations that put me into test… with lawrence people… bsta skin nlng un… heheh…

erm… sa lawrence mhilig mgkopyahan ng homeworks ang mga tao at isa ko sa mga un… haha… di maxadong todo-bigay pgdting sa presentaxons… cgro meron pang nttrang hiya… hahah… sa lawrence di rin mhlig mgrecite ang mga peepz… thmik lng cla… lging mgulo ang clssrum nmin… mkkta mo ang chairs na blktad lgi… bsta… tska prang wlang cleaners n ngeexist… hehe…

on the other hand, sa darwin mhlig mgrecite ang mga tao… wlang pke kung mali as long as try to speak ur mind… bakawan sa recitation at kariran sa paper worx… sa darwin sbrng dmi kong math-advisers… hehe… nakakamiss… sa darwin kya mong sayawin ang pinkamalaswang sayaw ng wlang malisya… sa darwin tanggap ka kung ano k tlga, prang mtgal nio nang kilala ung isa’t-isa… at sa darwin, bring it on… ilbas mo kung anong meron ka…

sna gnon din sa lawrence…

kso nde… xmpre unique ang bawat sexon… pero sna kht mging unique man ung sexon ko, mging msya prin… kc nman… 4th yr na… last yr na tpos di p ntin ppsyahin… dba?…

pno nman kc di mgiiba-iba… xmpre iba-iba rin ung mga tao sa bwat sexon at ang mga taong un eh iba-iba rin ang character… namimiss ko ang energy, ang taas ng atp at pgging hyper ng mga classmates ko… yan tuloy… feeling ko npakalikot ko sa lawrence kht na pra skin normal mode lng un… namimiss ko c tine, ang co-chem lover ko… c jaq n ksma ko lgi s pgkain ng mrmi…;p haha… hai… how i wish…

pero dba? ano p bng mggwa… i just hafta cherish kung nu meron ako ngaun… sna wlang mga plastik sa lawrence… sna wlang mga backstabber sa lawrence… at sna lgig totoo… sbhin kung anong ayaw at sbhin ang gustong sbhin sa isang tao…

pero mei isang taong ayw nila sa lawrence… ayw nila kasher at gngwan nila ng case study…;p haha… honstly speaking, a part of me wud want to join them… just a part… kc nga nman mejo nakakairita nga… pero di pa nman ako gnon ka todo asar sa taong un… kya… ignore nlng mna…;p hehehe…

thank God at andun cna xe, er at ren… kming 4 ang lging kumkain, ngkukulitan at ngaasaran…;p kso nga lang, absent c xexe khpon pa at pti ngaun… sad… miss ko n c xe…;p lol…

tnx din sa mga buddies ko sa lawrence… ipgptuloy ntin ang ksiyahan!!!…;p aja!!!… hehehe…ÜÜÜ

sa mga ptolemy peeps n cna jheric at justin, the j duo, tnx dhil shnshare nio ang iniong tlino sa amin… hehehe…;p

cge hnggg d2 nlng muna… an2k n mdling araw n eh… au revoir…Ü

hmmm… wla lng… cgro gsto ko lng tlga mgpksenti ngaun at ilbas lht ng nrrmdman ko… hahaha… i’m not used to be ‘this way’… cgro ngaun lng tlga to kya ayko n plmpsin pa ung opportunity… hehe…

i had a hard tym dealing with these frst weeks of class… grabe kc… sobrng sunod2 ung mga issue… sa sobrng dmi di ko na alam kung san ako unang lilingon… and i guess… i guess… it all started wen we became an item… i guess lng ha…

it just mkes me wonder kung bkit ‘kmi’ ang lging pnakekekelaman… nakakloka dba?… at tke note, ako ang lging tntra… ang lufet… hahah… nung unang kong nrning un sa frnd ko, i was dumfounded… i didn’t quite expect that… kc ung mga ngsbi eh wla nmang konexon skin eh… i mean, di kmi close… definitely not… tpos pra mrning ko sa knla ung mga gnong comments, aba, sosyal… npktlino at npkagling… whew…

naku… naku tlga… pslamat KAU at mas mpgpasenxa na ko ngaun… ayko PA kau ptulan… pero mind you, pnpgil ko pa ung srili ko… wag nio nang hntyin png pumatol ako sa inio dhil i will mke sure na di na kau mkkbangon pa… at ayko mngyri un… wag nio na kong punuin pa at wag nio ng pngrapin pa… tma ung frnds ko… di nio nga ako kilala… ndi nga…

ayko mgpcra ng araw sa inio… no way… syang ang araw pra mcra dhil lng sa mga taong wlng kwenta at wla nang ma-issue pa… duh!?! nging maarte ako cmula nung nging kmi?! cgrado ka ba s cnsbi mo?! lam mo kc, whoever u are, mtgl na kong maarte at pwede ba get a life… kung wla k pring mkuha, get lost at pkmatay kna… lol… hahah…

nyway, ayko ring klimutan na iinclude ung mga taong sooooobrng ngstay for me at dinefend ako… grabe tlga… i promise tlga sbrng ittreasure ko kng ano mng meron tau… i swear… and i’ll also do my best pra protect dn kau… sbrng slamat… alps, kht di kta mxdo nkkausap sa skul, i’ll ALWYS be thnkful sau… lgi… siZ, tnx din… kc kht anong oras ako mgtext nkkreply ka lalo na pag bglaan ung txt… tnx tlga siZ… sa lht-lht… promise tlga di mo mrrnasan ung mga nrnsan ko… tkot lng nila… hahaha… CNA!!!… grbe npgshshare-an ko tlga kau ng probs ko… sya2x… sya2 ntin kya ako rin bhla sa inio… heheh… to janina my ever dearest janie…;p heheh… wla lng… i was really touchd… seryso yn… im also hir to support you… to all my friends, di ko man kau imenxon na paisa-isa lam nio na kung gno ko ngppslamat sa inio…

lastly, my hunny, baby, soldier, master, mr. shemai… hehe… marvin… tnx tlga hun… kc u defended me and u comforted me lalo n nung tyms n sbrng klangan ko ng taong mgppgaan ng loob ko… mxdo lng tlga kong confused nun kya kht aykong maiyak naiyak n ko… but u mde me feel na super strong ako, n kya ko un lhat… u mde me fil n wlang problma n di ko mllpmpsan… u taught me how to weigh things tska pnwalaan lng ung mga bagay n importnt skin… ngaun cgrdo na ko, n kht ano pang gwin nila skin, kht ano pang cra at tira nila skin, wlang mkktapat dun sa kung anong meron ako for you… mhal n mhal n mhal kta n kya kong iendure lht ng pain para lng sau… seryoso yan… sounds mdrama pero yan kc tlga eh… cgro di ko mdlas nssbi sau kung gno ko ttgl pra sau pero as long as i know we have each other, wla n cgro kong dpt problmhin pa… bsta ba cute tau lgi at pnget ang unang gumiv-up eh…;p hahaha… shemai nman…;p lol… hai baby cgro epekto lng to ng pgkamiss ko sau… hlos wla n kc taung tym dhil sa skul worx pero k lng… sorry pla kung mtmpuhin ako mnsan… mnsan lng nman un eh…;p hehehehe…

cge… till hir nlng mna… antok na c lanie eh…;p hahah… au revoir mon amie…;p nyaha…Ü

…unRHYMED…

‘hi hunny!… i miss you ryt now…’
that’s all i wanna say, as simple as that
i tried to pull of the words from my head
but none of them seem to come out

if only you can see the trash bin in my room
a mountain of scratch with words of my heart
poems i tried to give life to, but still there’s missing
like my heart longing, dying to see you

this poem may sound more than a little reject
i know, i know… but what can i do?
i need no rhymes to tell you how i feel
this is the best way i can be real

well you may say this poem is my worst
but i live this just the same
for right now i can shout how much i long for
your touch, your hugs and your kiss

never did i think of loving someone
just as much as i do to you
for you made me cry, u made me smile
i’m so thankful for having you

i’m sorry if ideas are scattered right now
and words are all messed up
mem’ries and emotions keep banging on my head
yet none can make me feel fine…

like you do… like you do…

dump_it
may 31, 2005
not earlier than 12:30 am