Archive for June, 2005

piece of me…

Thursday, June 23rd, 2005

hmmm… wla lng… cgro gsto ko lng tlga mgpksenti ngaun at ilbas lht ng nrrmdman ko… hahaha… i’m not used to be ‘this way’… cgro ngaun lng tlga to kya ayko n plmpsin pa ung opportunity… hehe…

i had a hard tym dealing with these frst weeks of class… grabe kc… sobrng sunod2 ung mga issue… sa sobrng dmi di ko na alam kung san ako unang lilingon… and i guess… i guess… it all started wen we became an item… i guess lng ha…

it just mkes me wonder kung bkit ‘kmi’ ang lging pnakekekelaman… nakakloka dba?… at tke note, ako ang lging tntra… ang lufet… hahah… nung unang kong nrning un sa frnd ko, i was dumfounded… i didn’t quite expect that… kc ung mga ngsbi eh wla nmang konexon skin eh… i mean, di kmi close… definitely not… tpos pra mrning ko sa knla ung mga gnong comments, aba, sosyal… npktlino at npkagling… whew…

naku… naku tlga… pslamat KAU at mas mpgpasenxa na ko ngaun… ayko PA kau ptulan… pero mind you, pnpgil ko pa ung srili ko… wag nio nang hntyin png pumatol ako sa inio dhil i will mke sure na di na kau mkkbangon pa… at ayko mngyri un… wag nio na kong punuin pa at wag nio ng pngrapin pa… tma ung frnds ko… di nio nga ako kilala… ndi nga…

ayko mgpcra ng araw sa inio… no way… syang ang araw pra mcra dhil lng sa mga taong wlng kwenta at wla nang ma-issue pa… duh!?! nging maarte ako cmula nung nging kmi?! cgrado ka ba s cnsbi mo?! lam mo kc, whoever u are, mtgl na kong maarte at pwede ba get a life… kung wla k pring mkuha, get lost at pkmatay kna… lol… hahah…

nyway, ayko ring klimutan na iinclude ung mga taong sooooobrng ngstay for me at dinefend ako… grabe tlga… i promise tlga sbrng ittreasure ko kng ano mng meron tau… i swear… and i’ll also do my best pra protect dn kau… sbrng slamat… alps, kht di kta mxdo nkkausap sa skul, i’ll ALWYS be thnkful sau… lgi… siZ, tnx din… kc kht anong oras ako mgtext nkkreply ka lalo na pag bglaan ung txt… tnx tlga siZ… sa lht-lht… promise tlga di mo mrrnasan ung mga nrnsan ko… tkot lng nila… hahaha… CNA!!!… grbe npgshshare-an ko tlga kau ng probs ko… sya2x… sya2 ntin kya ako rin bhla sa inio… heheh… to janina my ever dearest janie…;p heheh… wla lng… i was really touchd… seryso yn… im also hir to support you… to all my friends, di ko man kau imenxon na paisa-isa lam nio na kung gno ko ngppslamat sa inio…

lastly, my hunny, baby, soldier, master, mr. shemai… hehe… marvin… tnx tlga hun… kc u defended me and u comforted me lalo n nung tyms n sbrng klangan ko ng taong mgppgaan ng loob ko… mxdo lng tlga kong confused nun kya kht aykong maiyak naiyak n ko… but u mde me feel na super strong ako, n kya ko un lhat… u mde me fil n wlang problma n di ko mllpmpsan… u taught me how to weigh things tska pnwalaan lng ung mga bagay n importnt skin… ngaun cgrdo na ko, n kht ano pang gwin nila skin, kht ano pang cra at tira nila skin, wlang mkktapat dun sa kung anong meron ako for you… mhal n mhal n mhal kta n kya kong iendure lht ng pain para lng sau… seryoso yan… sounds mdrama pero yan kc tlga eh… cgro di ko mdlas nssbi sau kung gno ko ttgl pra sau pero as long as i know we have each other, wla n cgro kong dpt problmhin pa… bsta ba cute tau lgi at pnget ang unang gumiv-up eh…;p hahaha… shemai nman…;p lol… hai baby cgro epekto lng to ng pgkamiss ko sau… hlos wla n kc taung tym dhil sa skul worx pero k lng… sorry pla kung mtmpuhin ako mnsan… mnsan lng nman un eh…;p hehehehe…

cge… till hir nlng mna… antok na c lanie eh…;p hahah… au revoir mon amie…;p nyaha…Ü

another one… haha…Ü

Sunday, June 5th, 2005

Fairy15

…unRHYMED…

‘hi hunny!… i miss you ryt now…’
that’s all i wanna say, as simple as that
i tried to pull of the words from my head
but none of them seem to come out

if only you can see the trash bin in my room
a mountain of scratch with words of my heart
poems i tried to give life to, but still there’s missing
like my heart longing, dying to see you

this poem may sound more than a little reject
i know, i know… but what can i do?
i need no rhymes to tell you how i feel
this is the best way i can be real

well you may say this poem is my worst
but i live this just the same
for right now i can shout how much i long for
your touch, your hugs and your kiss

never did i think of loving someone
just as much as i do to you
for you made me cry, u made me smile
i’m so thankful for having you

i’m sorry if ideas are scattered right now
and words are all messed up
mem’ries and emotions keep banging on my head
yet none can make me feel fine…

like you do… like you do…

dump_it
may 31, 2005
not earlier than 12:30 am

pre-school plan…;p haha…

Sunday, June 5th, 2005

..nightmares..

i woke up one morning
with hands placed on my face
i felt my body trembling
losing all its grace

that nightmare did quite shake me
i had almost cried
i couldn’t believe how clearly
you left although i tried

though i know it’s just a nightmare,
stories of the mind
i hope that you will always be there
ready to stay behind

i can’t afford to lose you
not now, not anytime
for i’d be worse than being blue
coz you’re my only dime

dump_it
may 30, 2005
4:17 pm

—>another post before i go to skul for tomorrow… hahaha…;p