damn damn damn… nothin more to say… *sigh*
i dunno y i’m wrting this one actually… i just don’t feel QUITE well and i don’t feel comfy with it… argh… i can’t spill it… i don’t wanna think of it… i wanna have it crashed outta my brains!!!!!… bullcrap… this started bothering me starting last night wen my sister and i talked hard court… waaaa… bad3p… i dunno to whom i’m gon confide bout this… all i know is that ryt now, my mind’s messed up, also my heart… i never ever wanna get hurt… neither do i wanna get caught between the most precious persons in my life… i don’t wanna choose… no way!… i dunno wat to do… i’m just thankful i can sigh… it relieves me and takes the bitterness away… a bit… and only for a while… oh my… i don’t think i have to make this one a big deal… but i’m telling you i’m too afraid… whew… if only you know wat i’m goin thru ryt now then ud understand… but NO ONE can understand me ryt now… no one will be there to help… it’s gon be my own decision, no one else’s… i dunno… whew… i’m walking on eggs… every step is important and every action is being watched… shit… i hate this kind of situation and i can’t stop wondrin y i have to go under these all??? i mean… i’m doing well, i think… am i not?… and there’s no reason for me to be damn afraid like this… but i’m thinkin of the WHAT IF’s… and u can’t blame me… no… u can’t blame me… damn… *sigh*… i wanna get rid of this asap… i have to… or else i’ll live in misery all my life… who wants that to happen?… no one… damn… i hope someone can just save me ryt now… i hope……….
